"So many things in my mind .
Like why am I not good enough? or why am i not pretty enough? Why am i not smart enough?
Or why is my body like this?
I swear There is a lot of people that I miss .. Do they miss me? Na I don’t think so or maybe they do so? i guess i will never know so..
My mom & dad ain’t proud I GOT to make them proud.
what if I’m not meant to be here maybe I’m meant to be somewhere else with someone else.
I have nobody.
I cant talk to anybody because they dont understand me I’m the only one that could understand me I have no friends because I choose too I only have my boyfriend but he has his own problems I don’t wanna stress him I just wanna love him .
Wondering what my point is in this world? I mean I’m not thinking suicidal its just you never know whens your last day i mean what if mine is soon? Its almost three in the afternoon i taught i just saw the moon ? Life is going pretty fast death is coming pretty quick my grandpa is getting sick i dont want him to be gone.. well my grandma is already gone my uncle is gone everybody’s leaving why? Why is life so sad? Maybe I just get sad to much or Maybe I’m just thinking to much. But in the end you have to realize that in this life no matter what you feel you make it what you wanna don’t let nobody tell you otherwise but what i wish the most is If i could take my own advise.
But I’m gonna take it cus i have to open up my eyes and REALIZE I’m not gonna be perfect because nobody is. I have to live. You might think your living but really think about it if you sit here in your own sorrow that’s not living life goes by in a quick second you say maybe it’s to late to change? But no it really ain’t. just do what you want when you want how you want who cares about these “rules” god didn’t give them so why should you & I listen ? Don’t do nothing crazy just do the dumbest the funnest and be happy smile threw all this bullshit because happiness wasn’t promised but sadness wasn’t ether, close your eyes & make your dreams a little bigger then open your eyes and make them turn alive just make it happen & i swear maybe it could be the best thing that ever happened ♥"
